Road to Nowwhere

hmmm. So far so bad.

I should be exercising and eating well but instead I am stuffing my face with junk and sleeping in.

I have tried to set a definate date for the Gold Coast engagement party but Scott still has to check his availability ugh! I am aiming for 19th June but it may end up being 26th. This gives me 11 to 12 weeks to get my act together and look fabulous. One of the people on the guest list is a swimwear model. I have never met her but I've seen photos and I don't want to feel like a frump next to her.

I have been looking into clip in hair pieces. In particular, Jessica Simpson 'Hair-do'. When I was single and blonde I bought one in blonde and wore it a couple of times and loved it. I want to try the relaxed wave 23" extension but I need to find a salon that has a sample ring so I get an accurate colour match. I'll probably order it online to get it cheaper (the blonde one cost me close to $200).

Feeling hungry, want to go to shop and get somthing 'yummy'.

Sick

I feel really sick due to all the crap food and sugar I have been inahaling.

I have managed to avoid having anything 'bad' today and I have typed up a 3 week rotational meal plan to follow. I have to go shopping as there is nothing in the house (not even any fruit). Luckily, Scott and I have been invited over to a friends for dinner, so I don't have to worry about shopping until tomorrow. Also, our friends are interested in healthy eating and so I don't have to worry about what will be served.

Had trouble getting up this morning but when I did, I did a good lower body workout. I should have gone for a walk as well, but it was way to hot at 7.30am. I am just going to have to get up earlier. ikh!

Cannot find my camera kit so I haven't been able to take any photos, but when I do, there will be a more photographic document of this project.

Instead I will post some older photos of me not looking so great hmmm. Perhaps I should have started getting into shape sooner.

Pig out!!

Woops!

As soon as I ate a little bit of foods containing large amounts of sugar, I went on a 'bad food' binge....for a week.

I need to focus because we are planning on having two engagement parties. One on the Gold Coast for our close friends and my sisters (who live nearby) and then one in our hometown with our families and friends who live there. I while ago I bought a size 8, gorgeous black cocktail dress which would be perfect for the engagement party on the coast. I want to wow my fiance's friends and I want him to be really proud and to have everyone think how lucky he is. I don't have long but I will keep a photo journal of my progress.

Also, I have never liked the traditional veils that brides wear and a few years back I spotted a 'birdcage veil' in a mag and fell in love. So I have decided to have that style veil. So fifty's which is very me.

Here is my favourite.

Engaged!

My boyfriend of two years proposed on Sunday!!!!

I am sooo happy.

I am really going to have to pull my finger out and get working on that makeover now.

Last day of work yesterday. Allowed myself to eat some of the 'goodies' at morning tea.

Didn't exercise yesterday or today. Woke up this morning with one hell of a crook neck...ouch!

Feeling fat and disgusting. Especially after my boyfriend showed my some recent photos he took when we were out for dinner with friends. I hate, hate, hate my double chin. I thought I looked good that night, boy was I wrong.

Well, yesterday was a failure and a success all rolled into one.

A lady at work was leaving so they put on a morning tea of cakes and biscuits, and Tim Tams! but, like a good little weight loss girl, I ate my banana and walked away.

Unfortunately, for dinner I ended up eating snackbox popcorn chicken from KFC because I didn't get home from work until late and there was nothing to cook with at home that wouldn't take longer than an hour. I had planned on getting a kebab (which I suppose isn't too bad) but they were shut and KFC and McDonalds were the only ones open in the food court. Damn daylight savings time! (live in QLD but shop in NSW).

I Did do some weights in the morning as well but I can't see me reaching my goal of 60kg by Sunday. Phooey!

I am sick and tired of hating the way I look. I really, really hate shopping for clothes and I really hate making excuses to not get into my swimsuit and hit the beach (which is not fun because the beach is at the end of the street I live in!).

My weight has fluctuated in the past. I have been 70kg size 16 and I have been, very briefly, 52kg size 6/8. But I am going to give myself a makeover and make it stick. I am going to be my own little project.


Wish me luck.